It was such a sudden feeling, I felt 'pulled down' so badly in my lifetime. I don't know what happened, but I feel this crazy sense of unwillingness overcoming me, which is indescribable.
I keep thinking
it's gonna go away but I guess I'm wrong. Somehow, people just like to tell everyone how sad their lives are
when they've got lovely parents and siblings taking care of them, they're so ugly
when they're gorgeous, in my eyes, they're so fat
when they're thin, they're so stupid
when they're getting better grades than mine. Maybe inferiority is taking over them?
They need to get their facts right, big time.
Why say that you're not pretty, when you've got dozens of guys behind your tail.
Why say that you're fat, when you're thin.
Why say that you're stupid, when you're getting better grades than me.
Why say that you're not happy with your family, when it sounds so perfect to me?
I'm not exactly upset about how you said all this...
Okay, I lied. It actually hurts so much when I hear what you're saying.
Maybe my life's not as bad as the others whom I've met, but I can assure you, mine's far worse than yours.
My brother doesn't speak to me
not that I care about thisMy parents are going through a fucking financial crisis, which means yes, my parents might be sued for bankruptcy real soon.
I don't communicate well with them (it's my fault, but how am I supposed to? I am... not like you, who can talk sooooo happily with your family.)
Hell, I don't even talk to my father's family, at all. A bunch of snobbish motherfuckers.
Get this: Liars don't live a good live. Since you said you believe in karma, practice in believing it. Do something good, tell us the truth. However, don't worry, I'll still hate you in whatever you say.
友達って何?
知り合いと一緒なら何もいい
でしょう?
じゃ，どうして今感じたのは「心配」「苦しい」だっけ。
と話したいの人はもういない ― いるだけど，話さないって。
もう彼と恋に落ちたよ。
さっき彼と携帯で話すんだ
すごく嬉しいけど苦しい。
せっかくなのに
彼と話す時，ずっと泣きたい。
「分かるから後でSMSするよ。今の相談ここでね。」って。
返事とは：「嫌だ。ダメだよ。今友達を待っているから，暇。彼が探さない。」
その時うちもうダメ，もうダメって。心で。
また彼の口から：「俺のSMS一回も返事しないなら学校でお前を探すよ」
嬉しい・・・かも。
会ってよかった。
本当に，会ってよかった。
でも
先輩から，敵の知り合いから，好きな人もいるから
彼に告白する事は無理。
無理無理無理無理無理無理無理無理無理無理!
無理って言ったんだけど，どうして心はあんなに痛くの?
彼の顔を思い出すとき，心がドキッと。
どうして?
どうしてお前は彼女の知り合いなの?
どうして最初でうちは彼女の携帯番号を教えるの?
自分が最大のバカだ。
バカバカバカバカバカ!!
好きだよ。
でも届けない。
早くSMSしようよ。
もうダメだ。
お前はうちの最優。
何が起こったら，教えて，一緒に話そう。
大好き。
愛するとは分からないけど
好きの方は100%。
大大大好き。
I realized that I've been bitching so much lately, I can't keep up with my own promises. Just yesterday, I bitched with TS about G. Well, I can't help myself. Who called her to suck so much and she's trying to do something she can't. Why the hell is she trying to do something she's not good in?
Anyhow, I met up with Gionni earlier on, he said he'll be off for shootin' some hoops, but I found him in the library? Wow, nice lie. Cover it up better, dude.
